01 November 2010

To my future self

Hi, Kian.

Starting this blog feels strange.

Not in a bad way.
Just unfamiliar.

It is one thing to think quietly in your head.
It is another thing to write those thoughts down and let other people see them.

Sometimes I stare at a blank screen, not knowing how to begin.
Sometimes I type something, delete it, then start again.

I keep wondering if this is even worth doing.

Who am I to write about life when I am still trying to figure out mine?

Right now, I am on my early 20s.

Still learning how to manage time.
How to deal with pressure.
How to balance dreams with reality.
How to stay hopeful when things do not go as planned.

Most days, I feel confident.
Some days, I feel completely lost.

And maybe that is normal.

Everything right now feels like a work in progress.

My career.
My relationships.
My priorities.
My mindset.

Nothing feels finished yet.

This blog is becoming part of that process.

A place where I can be honest without pretending I have it all together.
A place for small wins, quiet failures, and honest questions.

So this is really for you.

The version of me reading this years from now.

I do not know where you are in life when you find this.
What you have achieved.
What you have lost.
What you are proud of.
What still keeps you awake at night.

But I hope you remember this version of yourself.

The one who tried.
The one who kept learning.
The one who did not wait until everything was perfect.

I hope you did not stop being curious.
I hope you did not stop caring.
I hope you did not stop growing.

And if you ever feel tired, stuck, or unsure, come back here.

Read this again.

Remember why you started.

Remember that you once believed in yourself enough to begin.

Wherever you are now, I hope you are still becoming.

One honest thought at a time.