01 December 2010

The game that raised me

As a stereotypical Filipino boy, basketball found me early.

On dusty courts.
On improvised rings.
On borrowed shoes.
On afternoons that felt endless.

On watching NBA highlights,
dreaming of seeing a game live one day,
even though America felt impossibly far away, and impossibly expensive.

Like most kids here,
I did not just play basketball.
I imagined myself inside it.

I imagined the crowd.
The lights.
The noise.
The moment.

And somehow, it never left.

Not because I dreamed of making it to the pros,
but because the game slowly became part of who I am.

Before I learned how to speak with confidence,
I learned how to dribble.

Before I learned how to deal with pressure,
I learned how to take a shot with people watching.

Before I learned how to handle failure,
I learned how to miss.

From Michael Jordan, I learned that failure is not the end.
You fall.
You lose.
You come back.

From Kobe Bryant, I learned discipline.
My favorite. The one I followed most.
First in.
Last out.
No excuses.

From LeBron James, I learned leadership.
Stay consistent.
Carry the pressure.
Lift others.

From Stephen Curry, I learned belief.
Trust your shot.
Trust your difference.
Play your way.

Four players.
Four lessons.

All shaping one kid from the Philippines.

When I think about it now, maybe that is what life is.

A little persistence.
A little discipline.
A little leadership.
A lot of courage.

Basketball taught me that greatness has versions.

Sometimes, it looks like trophies.
Sometimes, it looks like improvement.
Sometimes, it looks like showing up when you want to quit.

Sometimes, it is not about being the star.

Sometimes, it is about building your shot.
Finding your rhythm.
Understanding your role.
And playing your own game well.

Because in the end, the real win is not becoming someone else.

It is becoming comfortable with who you are.
And committed to who you are becoming.

Maybe that is who am I.

A work in progress.
Raised by the game.
A Mamba fan at heart.
Still learning.
Still trying.

Still showing up for the next play.

01 November 2010

To my future self

Hi, Kian.

Starting this blog feels strange.

Not in a bad way.
Just unfamiliar.

It is one thing to think quietly in your head.
It is another thing to write those thoughts down and let other people see them.

Sometimes I stare at a blank screen, not knowing how to begin.
Sometimes I type something, delete it, then start again.

I keep wondering if this is even worth doing.

Who am I to write about life when I am still trying to figure out mine?

Right now, I am on my early 20s.

Still learning how to manage time.
How to deal with pressure.
How to balance dreams with reality.
How to stay hopeful when things do not go as planned.

Most days, I feel confident.
Some days, I feel completely lost.

And maybe that is normal.

Everything right now feels like a work in progress.

My career.
My relationships.
My priorities.
My mindset.

Nothing feels finished yet.

This blog is becoming part of that process.

A place where I can be honest without pretending I have it all together.
A place for small wins, quiet failures, and honest questions.

So this is really for you.

The version of me reading this years from now.

I do not know where you are in life when you find this.
What you have achieved.
What you have lost.
What you are proud of.
What still keeps you awake at night.

But I hope you remember this version of yourself.

The one who tried.
The one who kept learning.
The one who did not wait until everything was perfect.

I hope you did not stop being curious.
I hope you did not stop caring.
I hope you did not stop growing.

And if you ever feel tired, stuck, or unsure, come back here.

Read this again.

Remember why you started.

Remember that you once believed in yourself enough to begin.

Wherever you are now, I hope you are still becoming.

One honest thought at a time.

01 October 2010

The first page


Every person carries a collection of stories that shape who they become.

Some are victories.
Others are lessons disguised as heartbreaks.

KIANthology is mine.

A space for reflections between the personal and the professional.
Between studying leadership and learning life.
Between doing well and doing good.

I write to remember.
I write to make sense.
I write because words have always been my way of turning moments into meaning.

Each month, I will do my best to share small pieces of my life,
and the quiet lessons they leave behind.

While I juggle work, dreams, and everything in between.

This is not a brand.

It is a body of work.

A slow, ongoing autobiography written in fragments.
One post.
One thought.
One season at a time.

If you found your way here, welcome.

Stay a while.

Let’s make sense of this world,
one story at a time.